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From: Ade
Date: 10/13/04
Time: 10:22:36 AM
Remote Name: 210.84.228.243
Where do i start? I've been through the wringer over the last 3 years. My wife has had treatment and ongoing medication (if she takes it!) and she has currently been off of it for 6 weeks. All the delusions are back- finally convinced her to take her med. tonight!
I'm dealing with thoughts like... -her parents are poisoning our children (we have 3 girls, 9 months, 4 and 6.5) -my family are harming the children -her parents are going to kill one of my kids so as to donate organs in case her nephew's operation doesn't work -the school is poisoning my kid's drinkbottle -there are cameras spying on us in the house -someone has changed the roof insulation -everyone is lying and laughing at me, even my best friends, and everyone is in on the conspiracy, even new aquaintances -doctors are lying and misdiagnosing illnesses on purpose -her parents are giving us the flu by bringing it to the house somehow -she thinks the police want her but they're staying put to let her get punished -telling me I dont love my kids (in front of them) -i could go on and on
and she is 100% definite that it's all happening and the hardest part is that i am expected to believe her and confront all these people. The pressure is on to do something to 'protect' my family, and she has torn in to my arm before with her nails to try to convince me.
She believes she is 100% well and I'm sick! She doesn't want to take medication because the doctors are trying to harm her, apparently.
She believes all this is to punish her for things she recently remembers doing to others in the past, but which are totally made up and imagined, like eg. biting off 10 penises- really unbelievable stuff.
Our marriage is totally on edge and i just somehow hang in there because I love my 3 beautiful girls so much and I want them to be happy. I feel suicidal at times but know i just wouldn't do it.
I just need her to take her pills! She pretended for 6 months when she was pregnant last year and stashed them in a sock. Then ended up at a home for a while.
I've talked to lots of people over the time but am at a bit of a loss. Any advise? How do i respond to her totally crude utterings? Anyone else have similar experiences?