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From: Jenny
Date: 9/11/04
Time: 2:36:48 AM
Remote Name: 68.205.2.219
Im pretty sure I have PPD and had one day of PP psychosis. I had thoughts of hurting myself, my baby and just didnt want to take care of her. I felt frustrated and out of my mind. I had to call an emergency hotline so that I could calm down and not hurt myself.
I was cheated on and left for another woman during my pregnancy. He came back, and only stayed for 10 weeks. He returned to the other woman after assuring me I was a bad mother, lazy and not good to him. The first day I was alone after we broke up, I was psychotic. I was crying, angry, frustrated, dilusioned, and unable to understand, comprehend or handle my life.
I am seeing a therapist, and a psychiatrist, and it is helping. I feel like I might be seen as crazy or unfit, but I am really seeking help to be a good mommy to my baby.
I have been on meds for depression for about 2 years, and didnt think I was in PPD until after my BF left me (again). Its not easy, but our babies are worth it.
Thanks for being here, Jenny