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From: taurus870
Date: 5/3/04
Time: 2:15:08 PM
Remote Name: 162.27.9.20
My son is now 4 months old. When I first brought him home, I went through the "baby blues" according to my OB/GYN. Uncontrollable and unconsolable crying spells. Guilt, anxiety. Then after about 3 weeks, it seemed to subside and I felt better. However, several weeks ago..I slid into this pit of despair. I am lethargic, I struggle to find the energy to even "speak" let alone do the dishes, cook, clean the house or do laundry. I look forward to going to work to get away from "life". I dread weekends because I know I will have to spend time with my husband and my baby because I know it will involve a different kind of work. I'm a first time mom and having a baby is a definite adjustment. We struggled with infertility for 5 long painful years, and now we have this incredible gift and I "dread" going home from work at night because I know nothing will get done. The laundry piles up, and a meal must be cooked. I would rather not eat than have to figure out what to cook. My husband is INCREDIBLE. He helps as much as he can, and the guilt weighs heavily on me because I know how much he is doing because I can't seem to "get it together". I sat around this weekend while he cleaned windows....I sat there like a giant slug. All I want to do is watch TV and escape reality. My son is demanding and crys continuously if not held. My parents live 1,000 miles away and we have no family here. I wrecked the car last week which only added to my guilt. I don't want to feel this way anymore and I hate the thought of taking "medication" to make it go away. But everything that I normally take on without a second thought, now seems to be such a crisis. Can counseling without medication help those suffering from PPD? I'm at a loss and just starting to get information.